Sharing your love life with the world could prove to be difficult… Do you find it hard?
Not at all. Except maybe break ups. When your love life is so visible and public, and people fall in love with you as a couple, when you split it can be very hard and tough to go through because of the public comments etc. But overall, I think it’s nice being able to share my love with the world for someone I care for.
You have found love with Jonas Jackson? How are things going with you guys?
We are very happy. We are both very creative. Him with art, myself with music. I’ve never had that before. It’s nice to be so creative together. And I have his full support and he has mine. We work on building each other up and that’s important. I love him dearly.
When you guys are shooting with different people, has there ever been a jealousy aspect?
Only if one of us really wanted to fuck that guy too haha.
Have you ever watched a scene that Jonas has been in with another guy and gotten turned on?
OMG all the time. I jerk off to his porn all the time haha
How do you deal with “Fame” and everything that comes with it? The Good. The Bad.
That’s tough because I feel nothing can prepare you for it because everyone has a diff version of how it all plays out. Mine has been a humbling and awakening experience and 99 percent positive. I have incredible fans who I try and support as much as they do me. And think that’s important. And using my voice to help people is essential to me.
Social Media has been blamed for the increase in depression… You yourself have suffered with Bipolar and depression. Has social media had a direct effect on your own mental health?
I would never want to blame anything or anyone else for my mental health. i think that circumstances and things in my life are the reason why i am the way i am. but i wouldn’t change that. my mental health is what has also made me push myself and drive to be better and do better and not be defined by it.
How do you think that we as a community can tackle this problem?
Stop trying to put people in a box, too many people in the community are obsessed with categorising people by how they look or what they do sexually. we all bleed red, we all love, so one another equally. A lot of hatred towards others can be linked to feelings we have internally. I think it’s important to work on ourselves.
You have spoken openly about your drug and alcohol addictions; how do you keep yourself from relapsing? What advice would you give to others that are suffering with similar issues? Do you feel that is important to keep an open dialogue?
The people around me are the reason I don’t relapse and also the reason I quit. I saw what my life what doing to people I cared about and I was pushing people away, losing work, and entering this vicious cycle of anger and depression which I medicated with more drugs which just isn’t healthy. My advice is to sit everyone down in your life that you love and ask them how it makes them feel when you use. It was a big slap to the face for me and just what i needed to be bettep